>> Tuesday, April 5, 2011
There are struggles mounting at this time and sometimes it just makes me want to run and hide away.
I pray to my Father and ask Him to please give me peace about things. I try to lay my worries at the cross but so often I find myself running back to pick them right back up again. I pray yet I worry. It makes no sense. I DO TRUST GOD. I trust Him fully. I guess I think somehow, this time, things will be worse and He will allow us to go through more than I want to bare. Hiding does nothing because wherever you hide- you're still there and you're still thinking about that situation or that problem. You can't run for it, for again, where you run - you're still there. You can't get away from yourself.
You have to Truly trust the Father and give it up to Him because His yoke is light and I'd much rather give Him my worries and take upon His yoke. What does my worrying do for me? It makes me miserable, sometimes a stomach ache, sometimes a headache. It makes me grouchy, less meek and easier to get fussy. I've got to learn to leave it at the cross and walk away... knowing I've left it where He has it and can take care of it. His perfectly capable hands, unlike mine who can do little about it.
When we learn to relinquish those things to Him, we also need to pray for peace. And peace, yes, it will come..
It will come gently and cradle you and it will take away your worries. You just have to keep your faith and keep trusting.
I'm telling this to myself as well.