I can't allow myself to go through the feelings I'm feeling inside.

We all have others who count on us.

They need us.  They matter more than the feelings we have inside.

We have to make a choice.

We have to realize that if we go down the road of feeling so down and upset or stressed, maybe worry, it affects those we love.

They need our care, our love, OUR BEST.

 They deserve it.

As a mother you especially have to be careful because you don't want to neglect your daily duties and your relationships with your children and husband and most of all GOD.

Even if you feel you can't help it.  You can't; God can.

You have to give those feelings to God and try to move forward in His love, His mercies and His grace.

No matter HOW you feel, no matter how hard it is... it's a CHOICE.

Let me be clear - it's NOT a choice that you feel what you feel.  The CHOICE is found in how you handle it.  Whether you wallow in it or give it to God and keep giving your best.  At the time your best may be not as great as your usual best... but regardless, you must give your best and keep trusting God to pull you through.

The people who you love the most (other than God) count on you and they can't help what you are feeling.  They shouldn't have to bare with you what you are going through.  You may have to rest more or you may have to stay in the Word more... and be in constant prayer, NONSTOP... but you have to do your best to get through it.

You're not alone and you can count on those relationships to be reason to pull it all together.  You're not alone.  God is with you and He cares more than we, as humans, even know HOW to care.

Go to God and stay in prayer, find a friend who cares and can understand that you can talk to, and remember that this, too, shall pass.  It won't last forever.  I know I'm going through a rough time right now but it won't be forever.  There's a light shining at the end of the tunnel where all will be okay again.

Be encouraged.  God is with you.  And so many people, whether you accept it or not, love you and need you.

So do your best.  Keep your chin up.  and ... Keep going.

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Sometimes I just want to hide away.

There are struggles mounting at this time and sometimes it just makes me want to run and hide away.

I pray to my Father and ask Him to please give me peace about things.  I try to lay my worries at the cross but so often I find myself running back to pick them right back up again.  I pray yet I worry.  It makes no sense.  I DO TRUST GOD.  I trust Him fully.  I guess I think somehow, this time, things will be worse and He will allow us to go through more than I want to bare.  Hiding does nothing because wherever you hide-  you're still there and you're still thinking about that situation or that problem.  You can't run for it, for again, where you run - you're still there.  You can't get away from yourself.

 

You have to Truly trust the Father and give it up to Him because His yoke is light and I'd much rather give Him my worries and take upon His yoke.  What does my worrying do for me?  It makes me miserable, sometimes a stomach ache, sometimes a headache.  It makes me grouchy, less meek and easier to get fussy.  I've got to learn to leave it at the cross and walk away... knowing I've left it where He has it and can take care of it.  His perfectly capable hands, unlike mine who can do little about it.  

 

When we learn to relinquish those things to Him, we also need to pray for peace.  And peace, yes, it will come..

 

It will come gently and cradle you and it will take away your worries.  You just have to keep your faith and keep trusting.

I'm telling this to myself as well.

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